Family Photos

Started a Family Tradition, Last year Josh and I took a picture in this same spot, doing the same thing. I figured it will be fun for us to start doing this type of picture each year! Hallie better still let us do this when she is sixteen. ;)

She is seriously so beautiful! 

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Twenty Four on the 24th!

How old am I getting? Apparently turning twenty four on the twenty fourth of September was a good luck thing or something. But honestly out of all the birthdays I have had this was by far the best birthday ever. Josh was out of town on a work trip and was planning on being home late that night on my birthday so my friends took me out to dinner. It was so much fun, laughing and hanging out with them! I realized how freaking lucky I am to have so many great and amazing friends in my life! When my hubby got home from his work trip later that night I felt like he just kept surprising me with things. The next day I came home from work to find my really expensive camera fixed, with a new tripod. Than that Friday he picked me up from work and took me and him to Park City to spend the night and hang out for the day. He took me to a nice dinner, the waiter sat us down at the table and Josh and I quickly took off our rings and pretended it was our first date ( kinda cheesy and lame, but so much fun) we asked each other deep and personal questions! We laughed so much at dinner! I really enjoyed it! He than took me to breakfast in the morning, and we went shopping! It was seriously the best birthday, I was definitely spoiled a ton! I'm so grateful for Josh and the effort he made to make it special and for my friends that came to dinner! 

A few things have been weighing on my mind lately and that is how short life really is.
Last month I was involved in a car accident which took my whole perspective on life for a loop. Before i got in my car accident, i was so care free. I hardly wore my seat belt ever which my husband hated. I also took many things for granted, like my husband, my friends and family. I hardly made the effort to involve much of my family or friends in my life. I figured I was too busy to reach out to them. That day changed my life I dare say, Hallie and I were driving home, I was going about fifty five miles per hour with no seat belt. It all happened so quick, this young man had pulled out right in front of me seriously leaving me no time to stop. The moment i knew I was going to hit him was the scariest fear I've had. My first thought was Hallie my sweet little girl sleeping in the back seat. My second thought was Josh and my third thought was i'm going to die. The words "shit" came out of my mouth as i hit this other car, i turned my head and closed my eyes as i heard everything from the car crumbling in the front, the air bags going off and in the back seat something hitting my chair.

 Once the air bag hit me, the only thought was Hallie, and what i felt hit the back of my seat, which was were Hallie was sitting. The moment i heard Hallie crying i got myself together and jumped out the car so quick to reach her. She had the trunk lip right over her head, she seemed okay. I quickly grabbed her out of the car seat and as i turned around i had Jiffy Lubes employees right by my side helping me into there building. A man with his young daughter followed us in, he sat down right next to me and Hallie as we both were in tears. He began to ask how Hallie was and if he could check her out because he was a doctor. I didn't even get to ask his name, but he was so sweet to help Hallie and make sure she was okay. A few other men came in with my purse and cell phone and Hallie's stuffed animal, one guy was even trying to make her laugh. I tried as hard i could to get it all together for Hallie and seem like I was tough, but the moment my Husband showed up, I broke down. Twenty minutes after the accident Hallie was doing finE and running around and seemed like her usual self, so our in laws came and got her as Josh took me to the hospital to get checked out. The cop kept insisting that I go get checked out seeing as when an air bag deploys its going 200 miles per hour, I won't try to sound tough at all in this because in no way was i tough.

 My whole body hurt and felt like i ran into a brick wall. Josh wanted to take me to the hospital instead of the ambulance and if i could do it all over again i would have rode in the ambulance, not just for the experience, but the second Josh started driving, I hyperventilated and broke down. It was like going through something traumatic and than me feeling like it was gonna happen again, even trying to close my eyes while he drove wasn't helping, I could picture the whole crash replaying in my head over and over.. The whole time he kept talking to me, holding my hand and telling me how grateful he was that i was still here. It sounds so cliche but i feel like i saw my life flash before my eyes. i feel incredibly blessed, especially for me being an irresponsible idiot for not wearing my seat belt. I couldn't believe the love and support I got from people, that cared so much about Hallie and I. Friends that i haven't talked to in years reached out. Seriously life is so short, we lose so many people whether its due to an illness or an accident we should never take others for granted, we should always be wanting to better ourselves and help others. My husband has been the biggest blessing my life! Marriage is hard, but this experience has helped both myself and him show how lucky we are to have each other and our Hallie. Since this has happened i'm trying my hardest to be there for people and better myself and enjoy every moment in life.

Time to go eat some cake! mmm.. 

Happy First Birthday To My Hallie From April

                                                          Hallie Shay 
       

 I know every mother says, "gosh I can't believe my baby is one already"... But seriously I can't believe she is one. This year has gone by so quick. Once she was born I loved how little she was and easy, I mean she ate, slept and needed to be changed..  I remember saying I can't wait till she is six months and one, because that's when the fun personalities starts. But I miss her being a tiny baby. She has been such a joy to have and the sweetest girl ever. I am so excited to watch her grow up.  Hallie has been the biggest blessing, I never thought I could love anyone so much! Time to celebrate! Woot Woot!

     

Happy Birthday to my sweet little girl! I love you!

Updated

No better way to update a blog than six months later from the last post. So first I will tell you that Hallie is now 17 months old, her first birthday was a lot of fun. Josh and I decorated her rooms with balloons and stuffed animals while she was sleeping and than woke her up the next morning while recording it. Josh and I both worked that day so we celebrated with cake and ice cream and presents when we got home from work. I can't believe how quick the time has gone, Hallie has the funnest personality and makes me laugh everyday. Josh also graduated with his Bachelors in Engineering, (proud wife moment right here). Throughout the time that I have known him he has been going to school and working so hard, he has spent a lot of his time on school and work and I have been patiently waiting for this day that he finished. I am so proud of him, he is very goal driven and so smart, it blows my mind! So to my hubby CONGRATS love! 

We have had a fun summer, enjoying the nice warm weather! We took a trip up to Washington this year and spent two weeks up there! Hallie did really well on the 14 hour drive watching the Incredibles over and over again! Josh and I also completed RAGNAR together, what a fun experience that was and to be able to do it with my hubby was a memory i wont ever forget! I than after running Ragnar felt like i could do anything, so i started running in other events.. But i only like to run for the free things you get afterwards. ;) 

We also bought a house! Thats right we are officially grown up and in a house! We love it a lot! Josh and I also celebrated our 4 year wedding Anniversary hiking one of the scariest mountains i have ever hiked.. You see I have always had a huge fear of heights, as I started the hike I was alittle freaked out once we reached the scary part of the hike I suddenly froze and couldn't move I was seriously freaking out. I ended up turning around to the safe part to calm myself down and my sweet hubby kept saying to me we can go back but I kept thinking I didn't come all this way to turn around or look like a pansy in front of my hubby, I still like to impress him. So I made it up the second time and started hiking back up the scary part! Josh held my hand mostly the whole way for what he could! I loved that moment with him and overcoming a huge fear of mine! 

                                           Ragnar/Washington/Hallies Birthday fun

                                                ANGELS LANDING in Zions National Park

                                        Here are a few pictures of the last couple months!  

One Special Weekend.

This special weekend happened about a month ago. I've mentioned before how i don't really like Valentines day but seriously since I've been married to Josh he has made it great in so many ways.. He really did it this year though..

The day before Valentines day I was working all day, he called me and said I have a surprise for you.. He picked me up from work and took me to the same place we went to on our very first date, we then got sat in the same spot as well. It was really awesome especially to have Hallie with us and to just remember our first date and to think how far we have come. Who would have thought i'd be sitting in the same spot 7 years later with him and our baby..  We came home and there was a rose for me. It was rather romantic!  

Valentines morning, I was hoping to sleep in since it was my day off.. Haha Josh woke up butt early and started making me breakfast. A few months back I kept mentioning to Josh that i wanted to go ice skating since i have never been.. So his plan for valentines day was to take me to Salt lake and we were going to go ice skating and shopping.. We went shopping and Josh got me a new phone, it was a ton of fun. When we came home, Josh had set up about 50 candles all around the house.. it seriously was the best valentines yet. Just made me realize how lucky i am to be married to him. He is a great man! 

                                     Ps: Isn't Josh so good looking!! and baby HALLIE is adorable! 

Happy Birthday To My Sexy Man!

Since its the hubby's birthday today. I decided to write a few funny and awesome things about him.. because i'm such a great wife and all.  ;)
Here are a few things that you may not have known about Josh. 
1. He is madly in love and addicted to video games. His favorite games that he could play for days and days is Call of Duty Ghosts. 
2. He has another obsession with computer games. He plays Terria all the time, and is always wanting me to play with him. ( which i have and its a really fun game) So for all you married people out there that have hubby's that play video games and they want you to play with them. Download Terria on the computer right now.
3. He loves to eat and eat. I can always count on him to finish eating my food, and even sometimes he will eat my food even when i'm still hungry. haha
4. He has had the same friends since he was a little kid and they have man nights that last clear to the next day.
5. He hates lil wayne with a passion and thinks he is the worst rapper. 
6. When he kissed me for the first time, he left a piece of candy on my lip not knowing he did. haha
7. When we go on road trips, and we've been driving for 12 hours he tends to smell funny. haha
8. He is the biggest nerd and he admits it all the time. ( i have myself a sexy nerd, im lucky)
9. He is the sweetest most forgiving and caring man i know
10. He loves our Hallie so much and is seriously the best dad to her.

Happy 26th Birthday Joshua! You old fart you! 

                               Some of the greatest memories from the year 2013!
                             
                                CHEERS TO THE NEW YEAR 2014 woot woot, and to school starting for me, Josh graduating, Hallie turning the big 1years old, working more full time, and maybe introducing baby number 2 this year... we will see what happens! ;) 

                                Vacation to Tacoma/Seatle Washington. Miss that beautiful place. 

                                               What a great and fun year 2013 was... 

ChRiStMaS 2013

                   This year was Hallies first Christmas, and it was a lot of fun. I have been mostly excited for her than myself, I never really got excited for Christmas but since having my little girl around i have been more excited for things.. Like Christmas,going to the park, holidays, just simple things. This year we had Christmas at our home. We all went to bed around eleven and than Hallie and i woke up around nine in the morning while josh was already awake. We got Hallie a huge stuffed animal, she loves it. She gets so excited everytime she see him ( we named him Wilfred) haha. Than we got her a toy laptop since she loves playing with ours. She got a walker and then a few other toys, Of course she was more interested in the wrapping paper then her toys but what baby isn't right. 
Josh and I did something a little different this year, previous years we've got each other alot of stuff but this year we wanted to spend most of our Christmas money making it fun for Hallie. So we set a twenty five dollar limit for each of us. I got him a video game (thats kinda old that him and i can play together) Lego star wars. Than i got him some old movies and A few BYU things. His gift to me was tons better and meaningful, he got me school supplies and then he gave me a cool looking glass jar that he had put memories in there, and than he wanted us to add more to it. It was so thoughtful and sweet! I loved it! 
We both went and visited both our familes and ate so much food and candy, i almost started my parents house on fire, when i went to get rolls out of the oven using a dishcloth. woops haha it is my parents new house that i have never lived in so i had no idea where the hot pads were. I enjoyed spending time with my family and his family. Christmas is such a great holiday full of love and giving and celebrating the birth of our savoir. I'm so grateful for him! 

I hope you all enjoyed Christmas as much as i did!

       

My sisters and Mommy. My best friends yup! 

                                                       Hallie having fun with her presents. 

                                                     Love these moments with my baby girl!

                                                             My Twin Brother and I. 

Josh and Hallie always make the same face in pictures. lol 

2013 Coming to an End...

Oh my heck, We seriously only have 27 days left of this year! How crazy is that!!!
This year has seriously flown by so quickly, i swear when i was younger the years never went by this quick... it must be because i'm getting older..Dang it! So many changes have happened since January, we moved, had a baby, went to Washington for two months, went back to work, and started working full time. By far my favorite has been Hallie, she is the biggest blessing to Josh and I, She has the funnest personality and is always so happy. I do have to throw in that last night was her first night since she was two months old, that she slept through the whole night without a bottle.. Boy was it amazing.. When i woke up this morning i had to go check on her and make sure she was okay, cause i didn't hear her last night.. but she was just sleeping away. I've heard that as soon as you have a baby it makes marriages harder, because all your focus is on this brand new baby and giving the baby everything they need. I was talking with Josh last night about what his thoughts were and if he thinks its been hard, and he said that it has made our marriage greater than ever. I couldn't agree more with him, we are always laughing with each other and playing with Hallie as a family is so fun. It really has made our marriage just as great as it was before!
So a few updates, Hallie has started to army crawl, she is so close to actually crawling.. we have to bribe her with food of course, but she is learning haha... She has two teeth on the bottom, she loves music and will grunt at us in the car if there isn't music playing. She thinks that when we put her to bed at nine that its play time and she starts kicking and laughing at herself till we grab her and play with her. She loves to watch soccer games, when we go and watch an indoor game before my game starts, her focus is on the feild pretty much the whole time.
Josh is on his last real semester of school, FINALLY.. He has one class left next semester but the hard part is done! He is still working for the same company and loves it! For Christmas i bought him tickets to go see his favorite NFL team, we just got back from going to see them play in San Francisco.. he loved it so much!
I recently just got promoted at my work, Funny story about that. I had applied for the job but i didn't plan on getting it, because there were others that had applied that i thought would be better for the position, so i kept a positive attitude and interviewed. Before i went to my interview Josh had told me you probably wont get the job but it'll be good practice for you, ( your probably thinking how rude of him to say that, haha but honestly it was true thats what i was thinking in my head and he had said it in a nice way too) So after my interview that i thought went really well, I found out that i had got the job about two day later.. I was SOOO excited and happy about it, i wanted to call Josh right away and tell him. but i thought i would play a joke on him. i text him and told him i hadn't heard about the job and that i was kinda bummed about it.. haha.. When i saw him in person, all he kept telling me was that i shouldn't feel dumb for applying for it and if anything it was really good practice.. So after he said that i told him i didn't feel dumb, because i got the job! The look on his face was seriously priceless! We celebrated by going out to eat! i love my new position at work, alot of learning but its so awesome!
I also got accepted into Weber State University, most probably think that's not that big of a deal but to me its huge! When i was in high school, i never went to school and got caught up in the wrong things, things that didn't matter.. I loved learning and regret not going as much as i should have.. I ended up getting my diploma about a year after i got married, which only took a week to get. i always wanted to go to college but didn't think i would ever get accepted. So when i got that letter in the mail, it was like Christmas to me! I'm going this next spring semester and i'm going into Psychology and then from there going to apply to BYU to get my PHD in Neuropsychology. I have jumped from what I've wanted to study for so long, jumping from cosmetology to business and medical, but psychology is what I've always been interested in, and i'm beyond excited to start!

Thats the update, ill post up some pictures of little Hals, and the NFL game we went to and of Hals halloween costume!

In honor of Throw back Thursday

Throw back Thursday is the greatest!



I always love looking through old pictures and remembering so many good memories... I first was introduced to throw back Thursday through Instagram, Im keeping up with the times.. I think posting pictures of past memories are fun, but today i wanted to make a blog post about my throw back Thursday picture, So in the future i can look back on this and smile! :) 



Josh and I first met at a grocery store in 2006, i was a sixteen years old, with braces and just starting my very first job. I remember the first day working i was getting a tour of the store and i remember Josh stalking the shelves with cans of soup, i only barley got a glimpse of him but i noticed he did have really nice hair.  Through out the day i bagged peoples grocery towards the end of the day i needed to put the go backs away, i had no idea where most of them went.. i wondered around the store hoping to find where the food went. i turned around the isle and there was Josh walking right past me as he said hey in a manly deep voice, i being the shy sixteen year old with braces didn't say a thing.. I know i know its pretty rude, but as corny as this sounds he really took my breath away haha seriously though.. while i was working one night josh had came in on his day off to buy drinks, he came through the line that i was bagging in and while i was just standing there cause he didn't want a bag, he than turned to me and said i like your hair... hahaha i than again didn't say one word and i actually just walked away and scuzzed him off! ( why i did that i have no idea) I was so nervous around him, and i usually wasn't like that.. i would have considered myself kinda a flirt. but i was totally different around Josh, i would get so shy and not know what to say and sometimes even sweat! haha! Well after a fews weeks working there, one of the other grocery guys came up to me and wanted me to try this drink in the back.. So as i was walking back there with this kid and Josh, Josh turns to me asks me if i knew this girl that went to my school.. she was a year older than me and i for sure that it was his girlfriend.. i told him i knew of her and than that was that conversation. Still wondering if he had a girlfriend or not.. Well after a couple months had past, Josh and I really only said hey to each other when we worked together. On one special day, i wondered the isle trying to find fruit snacks to eat on my lunch and of course Josh was down that isle facing it... He said "Hey" to me and than we had maybe our second conversation ever... After we talked for a few minutes he casual asked me for my number so we could hang out sometime... Oh my heck, i so excited and nervous, I probably had the biggest smile on my face! After i gave him my number, i went back to work.. as soon as he got off work i went to the bathroom and read my first text message from him.. haha I was so happy! 

So after a week of texting he asked me if he could take me on a date.. Well this story gets even better, the day of our date someone at work had told me it was his birthday that day.. i thought it was so weird that he was taking me out on a date on his birthday.. I sure as heck wasn't complainin though.. He picked me up at my house and that is the picture below, my brother had taken the picture and told Josh that this was in case he needed to hunt him down in the future, what an awesome and protective brother! 
Josh took me to Applebees, and than we went to his friends house to watch the UFC fights.. It was a very fun night. Josh opened my door and walked me to the door at the end of the night. I remember not really saying much.. he was just too good looking, he made me nervous! This was almost 7years ago! Gosh, how time flies! 

                                     

Hallie is 6 months

          I can't believe that my baby is already 6 months old!  Pretty soon she is going to be a year old and walking and talking.. ha im very excited for when that happens! I love this stage, you start seeing there personalities and they are learning so much! She is the sweetest baby, before i got prego Josh and I discussed how many kids we wanted and we would jump around from having only one baby to maybe three, but than we would aways jump back to having one.. I think God blessed us with an amazing baby so we will have more.. haha She is really the best baby, and i won't lie it makes Josh and I want alot more than just one! So we will see, i love babies so im thinking maybe two more would be great, i gotta have me a mini boy version of Josh, since Hallie is pretty much a mini girl version of her daddy! She has two teeth on the bottom popping through! She had her six month appointment yesterday and she is doing great! We love our doctor she is always so jiddery and happy, she answers all my questions i have! So glad we have a pediatrician that is awesome!   

                                                           She's a little Diva! haha

                             

                                               
                                               

                          

Tribute to my Sister Christine

    

   
When the month of September comes, I get so excited and a little emotional. I feel special that me and my twin brother have our birthdays this month and my older sisters is two days before mine and my brothers. I get a little emotional knowing that i have an older sister that i have never met before.  When i was younger and i remember my mom talking about Christine to me, and i remember not understanding why. I remember when i was ten years old right after my grandma passed away with cancer, i would kneel down and pray every night before bed and i would ask him to tell them i said hi and that i loved them both so much. I've always wondered what she looks like or what her personality is like. I bet she is beautiful inside and out. I know that she is watching over me and my brothers and sisters. And i cant wait for that day i get to met her and give her the biggest hug! Keeping watching over us! :)

                                       So to my sweet sister Christine Happy Birthday! :)                                                                                          

                                              

Franke Update!

      This past month has been super busy with moving, and going full time at my job. Hallie will be five months on the tenth this month, and i can't believe how fast the time has gone! She has learned so much, she is now rolling over, she is all over the place. She is laughing all the time and talking her jibber jabber, its seriously the cutest thing. I started working full time just this past week, its been a big changed, I was only working part time before. I miss my baby a lot, and wish i could be at home with her! I love and appreciate every second i am with her. I could stay up all night just so i can spend time with her. We love our new place and actually spend time in the family room and eat at our table! HA! its great! Anyway when Hallie was four months old she was showing signs of teething, I asked our pediatrician if that was normal and she said it can happen that soon.  The other day she was super fussy, crying non stop for an hour. The next day she was still fussy but not as bad, i washed my hands and felt her gums.. I could feel two teeth coming in, one on the top and on the bottom! It was so cool! She is growing up to fast! I enjoy watching her grow and learn! Josh still loves his job, he is so busy with it all the time, and he just started his last semester of college! Yay! but that wont be the end, he plans on getting his Masters up at BYU! he is always impressing me! On top of our busy schedule my soccer season ended last week, my team won the championships! Woot woot! Soccer has been my favorite sport and i enjoy playing it! I finally convinced my hubby to be on the team and play, he has never played soccer before.. We had our first game last night, and i was very impressed on how well he did. Its really fun to have your hubby play on the same team as you! I can't wait to put Hallie in sports! So thats what we have been up to lately. Gotta love life! :)

                                             

                                  She is teething already.. I can't believe it!

                                                             How stinking cute is she!! 

                                                 

                                                                  
                                      Our Park City Day Date. <3
For labor day weekend we went up to park city and snagged the good deals going on! Josh got soccer cleats that were 140. but on sale for 40 bucks! Freaking a good deal for Nike!

                      

                                 

                                                      Meet Glacier! Prettiest dog ever!

                             

                       Hallz and Glacier are Best Friends! Soo Cute!

                            

                            Her new BYU hat! She is ready for football season.

                                           

Hard work pays off!

                             I am coming up on my 5months postpartum progress.. Each month im gonna post my progress, so sorry for those that dont really care. But for me its a progress month by month and it feels great. For the last month i have search all over the internet for awesome work out videos, mostly to tighten my stomach and to get toned. So i've tried of few of them on you tube, i didn't end up liking most of them. I did finally come across an amazing work out video, they have a whole ton of fitness videos. My favorite i have been doing is the Fitness Blender ab workouts, its only ten minutes long which i love! There other work out videos you will be seriously sweating by the middle of it. well at least thats how i was. haha.. I feel like i can't give any real fitness tips other than just stay dedicated and eat healthy. So here is my progress picture, the first one was in the middle of aug and the last two are the last week of august! I'm making progress! is it wrong to wanna be super fit! I think not... It'll be fun to look at a year from when i had Hallie and see the progress than.  

          

      

                                   

We finally have a table and a bigger couch!

Our Move! Hopefully its the last before we are in a house! :)

Josh and I moved just this past weekend, boy it was an adventure. There was a ton of good laughs the whole day. I have been extra exited to move because we bought a table and a couch. Now the whole time Josh and I have been married we have never had a table. Ha and now that we have one its awesome. When we first got married we were lucky enough to get a huge couch and entertainment center, well when i got a job in layton, we ended up moving out there and our apartment was so tiny, it might as well been a studio.. So we sadly had to sell our huge entertainment center and our sectional couch. With the money we bought a tiny love seat and saved the rest.. We have finally moved into a place big enough to have to have a table and a couch. I have had alot of fun decorating and organizing everything. Can i just say how awesome pinterest is! Goodness i have no idea where i would be without it. I got most of my ideas from that website! Which didn't cost that much either to decorate, i love good deals! Here are some pictures of it! Im pretty proud of myself! woot woot!

Used shower curtain holders to hang my purses up.. only cost five bucks! ( yes i know i have alot of purses, girl problems i tell ya.. You can never have enough right?) 

                                                 

                                               

                             The shoe rack organizer was only five bucks at the                                      D.I, we painted it and made it look                                                                    a ton better!


                                                   
                                                 


                                                   Our table!! Its so cute! Lol

                                                      

                                                        
                                                           

                                                 I love our new place!! We actually spend time in the family room since there is enough room to sit! I cant wait to have friends come over and hang out with Josh and I and baby Hallie! :)

I don't run, and if you ever see me run.. you should probably run too...

         I think i just signed my death wish, I have signed up for Ragnar. Now this is a big deal to me, because i have never ran more than a mile.. The last time i full on jogged a mile was in 7th grade and i more like tried to sprint the whole thing cause i wanted to win... than i passed out after.. So as you can see im not a huge distance runner.. I consider myself to be a pretty fast sprinter, i ran track all through out jr high, doing sprints. I loved sprints! you were done in like 13 seconds so it was a quick process. Also the other time i did something long distance was when i went backpacking with my family when i was 13 years old to the highest mountain in Utah, That was a challenge.. 

                                                             

When i go to the gym, i spend only 15 min on the elliptical because im trying to get a nice bum bum.. than i go do weights for 45 minutes.. I don't spend any time running, Obviously i don't spend any time on a treadmill.. Well that is about to change, i always respected people who ran like 5k and half marathons and marathons, freaking that takes skill,  and determination! Josh has always wanted to do Ragnar, so he is a little jealous.. 

I am so excited to do this! What a challenge, i mean i had a baby..So.. I feel like i can do anything! lol 

My Motivation... i would so wear this shirt running!

  enough said.... 

My Sisters in laws and Sisters

                      

As i am sitting here in bed eating croutons plain while josh plays his video games, i decided to write in this. Go me, i am a blogging roll lately!! Anyway,

Family has been on my mind a lot lately, and how much each of my sisters and sister in laws mean to me.. I couldn't help but laugh when i saw this quote above about sisters, because we all just laugh at each other. Life gets so busy for each of us, but i do want my sisters (also inculding my sisters in laws) to know just how much each of them mean to me! 

Growing up in a big family was a freaking blast, i have two older sisters and two younger sisters, while growing up i was excited for my brothers to get married cause that would mean more sisters, i remember telling them they needed to marry a lady that was cool so we could all get along..haha so far my brothers have picked excellent women! My sister the other day created a page on facebook for us all to get together and share things on, which kinda inspired me to write this about my sisters, Each of our lives are busy, and i feel as if we all live so farr away which all of us do. So it makes it hard to get together and spend time with each other. 

But you guys are all on my mind! I wanted to share a little about each of my sisters/ sister in laws and of course a special someone at the end of this post!

My sister in law Staci, she is married to my older brother Nate.. I first met Staci when i was a little girl, her little sister was my friend when we moved into our house, Staci was our next store neighbor, i remember going over to there house all the time to play, as a little kid i looked up to Staci, she was beautiful and smart and liked reading books, she also had a very good relationship with her mom and sister, its like they were all best friends and thats what i wanted with my sisters. She is one of the most genuine people i know, so smart and so loving, she is someone you could carry on a conversation with and know she isn't going to judge you. Im so glad that my brother married an amazing women and have a beautiful little girl, when i see them together its a happy feeling. You just know that they are happy and that they love each other. They are such a great example to me! I love you Staci!

My oldest sister Star, there is a ten year difference between me and star. She was the oldest growing up, When you are young you look up to so many people and she was of course one of them also. Star's nickname she calls me is Jane, and mine to her is Star bar... Yup!... Star is so giving and thoughtful she is always doing something for someone that will help them out and doesn't expect anything in return. She has a funny sense of humor. When we are around each other there is always something that we are laughing about, and its usually funny stuff that star does but doesn't even realize she is doing it haha.. When i was dating a tool bag of a kid (also known as a poop head jerkface) she was there for me when i needed a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to. She is a beautiful person inside and out! I love you Star Bar!

My second older sister Aimie, I want to say there is a 7 year difference between me and her, but im not really sure that would require me to do some math, and its late also math sucks! Since i was little Aimie has always called me Bay, and im not really sure the reason why that is.. but since i can remember my name is Bay to her haha.. She has always been there for me through pretty much everything, she is so beautiful and caring, she is also someone i have always looked up to and wanted to be like.. when aim and i went on a rode trip to reno which was a 7hour drive we were always talking about something, laughing mostly. We have a lot of good memories together. She is a very thoughtful person, who hardly thinks about herself! she is my best friend!  I love my Aimie! 

My sister Allison, she is my younger sister, I like to call her Allie Bob Squad.. i think she likes that nickname alot! Miss Allie bob squad aka (abs), she has such a cute personalitly, When i was probably eight or ten, i remember a.b.s must have been maybe three or four months old anyway i took her out of her crib and put her in my baby doll stroller and wanted to take her for a walk around our house, well i didn't even make it very far outside when my mom freaked out at me.. i just wanted to go on a walk with my little baby sister haha. Allie has been so much fun to have around, she is a pretty girl ( i will have to start locking her in a room so she doesn't date boys). Geez she has grown up to quick, its crazy how fast she has matured, she is so smart and knows her standards! I couldn't be more proud of the women she sis becoming! 

My baby sisters Mikayla, Now i think there is a ten year difference between me and my sis kayla, I remember when she was born and her hair was red..i remember thinking why was her hair red... haha i remember i accidently dropped her on the heater vent once, i felt bad and she cried. Since than we have bonded. She also a pretty girl who has many goals,We always are having a good time when we hang out. she has done so much already and isn't even in high school yet. She is like superwomen like my mom! She is so loving, funny, and always there when you need someone! She is also maturing into an awesome women, and im super proud of her!

My sister in law Nicole, She is such a sweetheart and such a strong women. I have't really known her that long. But i know she is a good person with a good heart! Im glad that my brother choice to marry you and im glad you are in our family! I can't wait to get to know you more!

           My Beautiful Sisters!

                                  


Each of my sisters have been through so much, and they each are such strong women, there daughters and Future daughters for you Allie and Kayla! are super lucky to have you guys as there mothers! Always stay happy and remember that your sister Sharae/ Jane or bay whatever you wanna call me, loves you all so much!


I couldn't finish this post with out writing something special about my gorgeous mother! This lady right here, is supermom! Just looking at this picture you can see how happy she is. Sometimes when im just talking to my mom i can't help but laugh at the funny things she says, My mom has been married since she was 18 years old and has 12 kids, Talk about a women right there! She has stayed at home and raised us while growing up, My mother  is already for the day, i can't tell ya a time i saw my mom without her hair done or without make up, she has taken such good care of herself! there was maybe two times i saw her without her hair done and that was camping so that doesn't really count right. ;)
My mother is such an amazing women, and thats probably were my sisters get it from. She is caring and loving. She is there for us when we need her! She makes us laugh! And she has supported us in life! Without my mom i don't know where i would be, i love her so much and i know i may not tell her that enough, but she is a great example to me! Thank you mom for always being there for me, thank you for always putting up with my many attitdudes growing up, thank you for listening to me, and thank you for always loving me! You are such an amazing women, just like all of my sisters and sister in laws! Thank you!

                                                   

Love Yourself

                                                          

We all have our own insecurities... both men and women.. Whether it be something about our personal features, are relationships with our spouse, boyfriend or just other people, or our personality, or weight. Sadly we all have them, and they suck. 

When i first married Josh i was beyond insecure, I thought he deserved someone better looking, more ambitious, i figured i was so insecure because of my past relationships and how i was treated. i felt i was  brought down everyday and who i was wasn't good enough in those past relationships. The good thing is that its the past and i don't have to let it affect me today. Over coming your insecurities and learning to love yourself is a  work in progress. During my marriage and all of my insecurities like not feeling good enough, not feeling pretty, not feeling any self worth. Poor Josh who had to deal with them all the time at the first of our marriage haha, i've tried to think of how i can overcome them and stay focused on the positive things. Well Jennifer Aniston is my favorite and i came across this quote a few months ago and have started to live by it, and its very true. We are all beautiful people and worth so much, we have alot to offer and we all can make a difference in others lives.   Here's a question, Why do we have insecurities?

My answer would be fear or rejection, Not feeling loved, not feeling of worth, rejection from other people or fear of loosing the person you love ( your spouse). I was so insecure of how i looked and that i wasn't pretty enough and that Josh would leave me for someone better or someone who was more ambitious, I can't help but laugh alittle because when i really actually look at the big picture Josh wanted to marry me, thats a huge deal for any guy to choose a women that you want to spend forever with is big deal, he knows im worth something, and it took awhile to finally see that. 

So to get over our insecurities we need to ponder, get to the very root of why we feel that way.. 

Find the good things about yourself that you love, Don't go seeking attention or try to obtain complements from people to make you feel better about yourself cause those come and go.. I feel you need to love yourself to feel confident and to overcome insecurities. Of course we all love complements, what person doesnt, im not saying to forget those, im saying don't rely on others to help you feel secure. 

I came across this web site other day. http://www.pathwaytohappiness.com/writings-insecurity.htm

I just thought about writing my thoughts on the subject and just how much its changed how i feel about myself, just by loving myself and feeling comfortable in my own skin and fully knowing who i am is Happiness i tell ya. haha..